And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

When my surgery was cancelled in January, I could not begin to fathom what God was doing in that situation. It felt overwhelming to think of having to wait indefinitely for relief from the symptoms of gastroparesis.  It was certainly an exercise in trust that His plan was better.  It was an opportunity to learn to trust the foundation of faith that He has rebuilt for me in the last year of my life.  

Ultimately, over the next few months, God led me to a different doctor who was super thorough in her approach.  She placed me on IV fluids at a local infusion center multiple times a week.  She discovered that my symptoms had an autoimmune component that would benefit from an immunotherapy that I have had in the past.  We trialed the stimulator to ensure that it was the correct solution for me before permanent placement.  

The months of waiting, seemed long and uncertain, but oh was it worth the wait for the blessing he brought through it.  At the infusion center I was reconnected with nurses who have cared for me in the past and helped me push through my health struggles to get through college all those years ago.  They jumped right in to offer comfort and encouragement through this season too.  

The thoroughness of this doctor brought the return of a treatment that worked so well for me in the past.  The several years without this treatment brought increased struggle with my health but I had long since given up on getting it back on board.  I finally felt heard and supported.  Finally, the root of the problem was being treated again.

The stimulator was placed in July and has drastically improved my quality of life.  I’m no longer suffering with the constant nausea.  My plan was to just have the surgery and while this may have alleviated the current symptoms, the underlying cause would still be left untreated.

God provided a Red Sea Road, when all seemed uncertain and overwhelming.  He aligned a road that would allow my path to cross with the right people at the right time.  He orchestrated a brighter and more hopeful future than I could have ever anticipated.  He showed me, He alone will hold my right hand as He continues to walk me through chronic illness.  In my waiting He was working it all for my good even when all I could see was fear and uncertainty.

Friend, what hard things or uncertainty are you facing today?  I know it is difficult to see it while you are in the midst of the pain, heartache, or fear but as believers we can rest that He is working all things for good.  He has us, always.  May we land on His grace.